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My Journey Coming Out of the Deep Dark Ditch of “publish or perish”

This is my story – the story of going through a tremulous phase of my life during which I lost faith in science and myself, but eventually regained it.

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– Sandhya Sriram, PhD – 

[dropcap]E[/dropcap]ver since I decided to pursue research, I was told one thing – You have to have good publications to succeed as a scientist. This was embedded in my mind, body and soul since every successful scientist I knew had a good or great track record of publications.

But boy oh boy, later did I know that this statement is not true. What matters most is good and meaningful science and that will eventually lead to good publications. 

This is my story – the story of going through a tremulous phase of my life during which I lost faith in science and myself, but eventually regained it. As it is said, time heals all.

I enjoyed my PhD – for the most part. The usual issues with the supervisor, waiting for results, problems with collaborators, tiffs with colleagues and unexpected expectations from everyone around you were part of my PhD too. But I loved working in the lab surrounded by my Western blots, pipettes, cell culture media, the constant humming of various equipment and the loud music trying to beat that humming. I loved the part of waiting for results – to see the magic of the protein bands on an X-ray film or the cells grow and beat/twitch under the microscope. 

Dr. Sandhya Sriram

I first published in a good journal in the second year of my PhD – that was quite an achievement. It was a breeze I should say, as it got accepted in the first journal we submitted to with very few edits to do after the positive review. I was elated and so was the team barring a few jealous members in the lab….

Anyway, moving on, I graduated with a PhD in 4 years with three first author papers and a couple of papers that I co-authored. I continued with the traditional path in academia and went on to do a couple of postdoctoral fellowships. Life was good.

I like juggling and multi-tasking; I do not think I will ever leave the field of science whatever happens. I believe in living life to the fullest.

Then, one fine early morning, when I was vacationing in Malaysia, I got a call from my PhD supervisor. I felt the floor beneath me crumbling down, my face getting really hot, tears flowing down from my eyes, my blood pressure rising, my head throbbing and my head feeling dizzy. He gave me news that an anonymous whistleblower has alleged that I had manipulated the results in my thesis, published papers and that I was involved in research misconduct. At this point, I was told that this letter was sent to the university and the journals only pointing fingers at me and no one else in the lab. But later, I came to know that this was not true.

To cut the long story short, I came out ok with a few bruises in terms of having to withdraw one publication – but completely stabbed in the soul, the soul of science.

Through the grueling investigation and numerous interviews the university conducted, I questioned my own experiments, my faith in myself and in science. Basically, I was questioning everything I had done my whole life! I felt I was being put into a very dark ditch and that I could never get out of it. I was disturbed, could not sleep very well and had nightmares of floating Western blot films!

What got me through all of that pain was a very supportive husband and my closest colleagues, who believed in me every single step of the way. My husband only said one thing – “If you have manipulated results, accept it truthfully. If you haven’t, then do not worry – tell the truth, be firm and everything will be fine.” Of course, I did not manipulate any results or have even thought of doing it. So, all I had to do was show my results, the excel sheets, numerous Western blot films, microscopic images and so on at the investigations. It meant going through all my results of the last 6+ years one by one!

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Eventually, after a miserable 18 months, I did get out of it with valuable lessons and restored faith in science, research and most of all, in myself. But that period of my life is etched in my memory and has made me look at life and career in a very different way. Now, I cherish science, but I am on the other side of it.

The most valuable lessons I learned was:

[su_note note_color=”#f9d4dc”](1) be strong, make sure you have a strong support system as well

(2) be confident if you have not made an error

(3) make sure all your results are well documented and you have multiple copies of your results.[/su_note]

I quit fulltime research last year and took up business development and program management in a research institute instead. I love being able to support and help scientists pursue research effectively. At the same time, I turned into an entrepreneur – my recent startup being SciGlo (www.sciglo.com). The unique selling proposition (aka USP) of this web platform is the Lab Ratings solution – which is a completely anonymous platform to enlist and rate labs… well why not, you look for movie and restaurant ratings – why not look at ratings of labs by your peers, when you end up spending 1-5 years of your life in a lab.

I like juggling and multi-tasking; I do not think I will ever leave the field of science whatever happens. I believe in living life to the fullest. The bitter experience left a bad taste in my mouth but taught me so much and I think it was for the best. Every experience makes us a better person.

Science is in the air I breathe.

Tip Box

Try everything at least once. Go for it. If you do not try, you will never know what works for you.

Ask questions – without questions and clarifications, you can never move forward. However trivial, ask them.

Entrepreneurship is addictive – once you enter it, it is very hard to get out. Entrepreneurs make the best and the worst human beings; so decide who you want to be.

 

[su_boxbox title=”About Dr. Sandhya Sriram: Scientist-entrepreneur-blogger” box_color=”#741B1B”]About Dr. Sandhya Sriram: Scientist-entrepreneur-blogger Sandhya is an entrepreneurial scientist and blogger, currently working as a Programme Manager at Singapore Bioimaging Consortium (SBIC), A*STAR. She recently transitioned into a management role from research – prior to this, she was a Research Fellow working on adipose and dental stem cells, pluripotency, oxidative stress and obesity.

Sandhya is also the founder and CEO of her latest venture, SciGlo, which caters to helping people in STEM. It is a web resource hub and solution platform to build a community of students, researchers and scientists from various science sectors. She has been featured in Forbes – Women@Forbes for her entrepreneurial work. She strongly believes that innovation and entrepreneurship in the health sciences, biotech and healthcare sectors is the way to go and the only way mankind can exist in the future. Her passion has always been to do meaningful science and not fall into the trap of “publish or perish”​!

Starting up her own company/website(s) SciGlo and Biotechin.Asia, has been an eye-opening experience, through which she further discovered her passion for the “right” science. Sandhya holds a PhD in Biological Sciences and lives in Singapore. She gives back to the student population by conducting/speaking at various workshops for careers in biotech and biomedical sciences, science communication and women in science. She is also a startup mentor at Vertical VC, Finland. She is a strong supporter of women in science and is passionate about this topic. She is also a mother of a very inquisitive 5-year old; fond of good vegetarian food and loves to travel in comfort and style.[/su_boxbox]

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Unexpected Stories and Spindle Mistakes: Discovering that Wild-type Cells are Full of Surprises

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Natalie Nannas is an Associate Professor of Biology at Hamilton College in Clinton, NY. She teaches courses in genetics, molecular biology, and bioethics. Dr. Nannas graduated from Grinnell College with bachelor’s degrees in biological chemistry and French. She received her Master’s and PhD from Harvard University in molecular biology and genetics. Dr. Nannas conducted her postdoctoral research at the University of Georgia where she won a National Science Foundation Plant Genome Postdoctoral Fellowship. At Hamilton College, Dr. Nannas enjoys teaching and sharing her passion for microscopy with her undergraduate research students. When not glued to a microscope, she loves spending time with her husband and two daughters. The narrative below by Natalie Nannas captures the human stories behind the science from a 2022 paper titled “Frequent spindle errors require structural rearrangement to complete meiosis in Zea mays” which was published by her group in 2022 in the International Journal of Molecular Sciences.

Science never works out the way we plan. As scientists, we ask questions, hypothesize and outline our goals … then reality of science occurs. The reality of science is often full of failed controls, endless troubleshooting, and sometimes strange findings that lead us in new and unpredictable directions. Our publications give the impression that we planned these scientific journeys from the beginning and do not tell the human side of the process with all of its twists and turns, dead-ends and U-turns. I want to tell you the real story behind my first publication as a faculty member with my own lab. It did not go as planned due to the COVID-19 pandemic. My lab was shut down in the middle of our investigation, and my students and I were unable to generate new data. In the beginning, it seemed like we were stranded with only control data and no story to tell, but the time away from the lab allowed us to spend more time looking carefully at wild-type cells. What seemed like a dead-end suddenly became its own story when we found something unexpected hiding within microscopy movies. Our wild-type cells were making mistakes, attempting fixes and changing directions, just like we do as scientists.

My scientific journey began with flickering green lights and a microscope (you can read more about it here). As an undergraduate, I was mesmerized by the beauty of watching living cells shuffle fluorescently labeled proteins throughout their cytoplasm. I followed this passion for microscopy into my doctoral dissertation research at Harvard University where I investigated how yeast cells build the machinery needed to pull their chromosomes apart. This machinery is a dynamic collection of long protein tubes called microtubules and other organizing proteins that help move and shuffle microtubules. I loved watching the delicate dance of chromosomes interacting with microtubules of the spindle, and I wanted to continue studying this process in my postdoctoral studies.

During postdoctoral studies at the University of Georgia, I won a fellowship from the National Science Foundation to develop a new technique in microscopy. No one had ever watched plants building their spindles in meiosis, the specialized cell division that produces egg and sperm. Other scientists had performed beautiful microscopy studies observing how mitotic spindles function inside of plant cells, but due to the technical challenges, no one had ever observed live plant cells building spindles in meiosis. I was thrilled to take on this challenge by using version of maize that had fluorescently labeled tubulin, the protein that makes up microtubules of the spindle. With this line of maize, spindles would glow fluorescent green, allowing me to image if only I could extract the meiotic cells.

Dr. Natalie Nannas

We were so busy collecting data and prepping for our mutant studies that we never really took time to analyze the wild-type cells.

After almost a year spent dissecting maize plants, I finally managed to develop a method to isolate these tiny cells and keep them alive in a growth media long enough to image them. This new method of live imaging was going to serve as the foundation of my new lab at Hamilton College, a primarily undergraduate institution. With my students, I planned to investigate the pathways governed spindle assembly. Most animal mitotic cells have a structure called a centrosome that dictates how spindles are formed; however, female animal meiotic cells lack these structures and must use other pathways to direct spindle assembly. Plants also lack centrosomes, and I wanted to inhibit these known animal pathways in our plant live imaging system.

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As I set up my lab, my students and I collected live movies of wild-type maize cells building their spindles. I told my students and myself that these movies were not the main event, they were just the control cells so we would have a baseline comparison for our experimental conditions. We were so busy collecting data and prepping for our mutant studies that we never really took the time to analyze the wild-type cells. At the surface level, they built spindles and segregated chromosomes in a generally expected amount of time, so we focused on preparing for our upcoming experiments…. then March 2020 occurred.

The pandemic forced us to slow down and look more carefully at our wild-type data, and I am grateful for the detour.

My students headed home for spring break with a warning that there may be a delay in coming back to campus due to the spread of COVID-19. None of us were prepared for the shutdown that followed. Like many colleges and universities, our campus was closed for the remainder of the spring 2020 semester and the summer of 2020. My students and I began meeting on Zoom, trying to make a new plan for our research. The only data we had to work with were the microscopy of wild-type maize cells, so we decided to spend time digging more deeply into these movies. Originally, we had only measured the total time it took to build a spindle as it would be a baseline for comparison to our mutants. We had not looked carefully at any of the intermediate time points in the assembly process. When my students looked more closely at our movies, they discovered that wild-type cells built an incorrectly shaped spindle over 60% of the time!

We found that maize meiotic cells often built spindles with three poles instead of two, and they had to actively rearrange their spindle structure to correct this mistake. We also found that in these cells, there was a delay in meiosis as cells refused to progress until this correction had been made. This is an exciting discovery as it showed that plants are error-prone in their spindle assembly, much like human female meiotic cells. Our findings also suggested that meiotic cells were monitoring their spindle shape when determining if they should move forward in meiosis. Previous work has shown that cells monitor the attachment of chromosomes to the spindle to make this decision, but our work adds a new dimension, showing that they also monitor spindle shape. As we continued to analyze our videos, we also learned that cells corrected their spindle morphology in a predictable way. They always collapsed the two poles that were closest together, creating a single pole and resulting in a correct bipolar spindle.

The image shows the first page of the paper which can be accessed here.

My students and I had begun our scientific journey planning to breeze over wild-type cells, moving on to what we envisioned would be a more exciting story of spindle mutants. The pandemic forced us to slow down and look more carefully at our wild-type data, and I am grateful for the detour. I rediscovered my love of closely watching flickering green fluorescent lights, the dance of microtubules sliding into place or making missteps and shuffling into new arrangements. Watching life attempt a complicated process, make mistakes, and try again, is a lesson that never grows old. It reminds me that our scientific journeys are just the same, they start in one direction but are fluid and constantly changing, and hopefully, they end with a functional spindle!

Read the Published Paper

Weiss, J.D., McVey, S.L., Stinebaugh, S.E., Sullivan, C.F., Dawe, R.K., and N.J. Nannas. 2022. Frequent spindle errors require structural rearrangement to complete meiosis in Zea maysInternational Journal of Molecular Sciences, 23 (8):4293–4312.

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